Saturday, April 25, 2009

it's over...

cant believe the field trip is over...
huu..one d*mn hectic week.
but tot me a lot of self discipline.
sleep early, wake up early, nvr forget mathurat, jemaah prayer..study n discussion.dear lecturers were great..but sumtyms it's so confusing when they keep on arguing..huhh..
mm..thnx to my dear -one week- rumate: mirah, yana, jay, tc, and asha. unluckily..we hv no time to pillow talk. hehe.

came back yesterday..miss my bed so much.!huhu
reviewing the field trip..i gain lots of knowledge..at least, now m kind of good in measuring the strike n dip, a fundamental basic theory i just know after 1 n half year of learning.grrr.

the whole week was not really good..but not really bad. it's just..OK. the hecticness was worst than OBS, for me. i also learn to work in grup of people im not really close with..which is good..to get to know new frens.=]. n also..to cope with a kind of person which is too complicated, sometimes selfish n weird... which sometimes the annoyingness is unbearable..but for the sake of my study, i really hv to be patient n keep on muuuving.! a big thnx to shahul, he worked hard for this group,n sorry for not being really helpful at field..=[

the weather was so hotttt!walking thru the jungle with mud n taik kelawar was better than walking along the roadside..full of nice outcrops but dehydrate me like crazy.lucky me..i didnt get migrain..just hd minor headache due to too tired.mm..the longest walking distance is 10 km..2nd day..in niah cave.but it's even worst working in 5th day outcrop tepi kubur.Lambir-road even tho it's only few kms from the chalet...coz it's hot like he**.

after all...everything was just fine. thank u Allah..for giving such bless along the field trip period.!

btw..i tink m a bad fren.=[

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Wednesday, April 15, 2009

a little correction

hmmm. it's better not to read my blog if u dun understand me n wut ive gone thru all my life.
i dun write for readers. i write for me, my satisfaction, my understanding, and my hope.
i dun judge people, i noe the person i wrote about. i didnt even said the person is sinful, coz it's not my authority to judge whether the person is sinful or not. i just want others to tink. not to make assumptions. i want ppl to understand. not to misunderstand. but y shud i bother thinking about ppl's assumption? coz u dun even hv any right to judge my writing , my thinking, n myself as a sin coz u r not HIM. it was, n never will be between me n u, it's between me n Allah swt. so, syuh2.i dun need such reader. 

Saturday, April 11, 2009

$empurna?




i was hormonal few days back..which is normal for every woman i guess.
mmm..so..i hope ppl won't assume anything bout something that made me sad. im ok. im over it.yes i loved him. but the hatred overweigh the love which equal to..no love at all. m just weird at that tym y ppl support such buaya like him. im not anyone to say this this, but i really tink that he doesnt deserve a good girl.not until..he realize what love is.he is so much like an immature litte boy.how cn ppl not see this? pls b more observant people!
errkk.umm.sorry if i over react or emotional.

what if..a person tinks he's enuff of what he is? looking for someone who can accept him as he is..? what a person wud say this..im good+bad=im equal(balance).oh please la sedar..m so risau bout the adeks.hope Allah swt will protect her.

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hmm..it's tuition free week..so..there's so many tym to tink bout the unimportant stuff.huhuh..things i write doesnt bother me as much as things i cant write...i cnt write y m so so happy!..tho i noe this won't last.but at least, i hv a reason to smile.=]

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Monday, April 6, 2009

y depend on people?

not everyone realize..yet understands the real meaning of being a muslim. To search for the truth is always my passion. seeking for the reason why..n why..people these days(including me)..become so cruel to themselves. (zalim = tidak meletakkan sesuatu pada tempatnya)

some people tink that happiness is the destiny of life? is it true?..hmm..different people hv different view of happiness...
-those who doesnt hv gf tink they'll be happy if they hv one.
-those who've done lots of sins tink they'll be happy if they havent did thos sins.
- those who dun hv much money tink they'll be happy if they r rich

n lots n lots more..we never feel enuff of having wut Allah swt had given us.people r always like that...why?

alone..lonely..n loneliness...why r we always need someone to fill in the emptiness...?we do we need someone to help us n solve our problems..why we never gv up on jumping from one to another..just to find the temporary happiness? why go far..if we cn just sit n pray for everything that we want..seek from Him the one who never betray u n loves u no matter what.

why keep on doing mistakes when u noe it's not right..why dun have a moment..flash back on wut uve done..regret.n improve.not easy tho..bt it cn be done.why stay on that track...u r the reason for any change in ur life. not other people. why depends on people to change ursev? one had told me that he needs someone better to change him..huu..i observed him..n always noe..he'll nvr change..never learn..if the will doesnt come from his deepest heart.

why?
lets tadabur these verse n tink. this verse is also good for rizk.
Al-Imran (26-27)

قُلِ اللَّهُمَّ مَالِكَ الْمُلْكِ تُؤْتِي الْمُلْكَ مَن تَشَاء وَتَنزِعُ الْمُلْكَ مِمَّن تَشَاء وَتُعِزُّ مَن تَشَاء وَتُذِلُّ مَن تَشَاء بِيَدِكَ الْخَيْرُ إِنَّكَ عَلَىَ كُلِّ شَيْءٍ قَدِيرٌ ﴿

Say, `O Allâh! the Lord of all power, You grant power to whomsoever You will and take away power from whomsoever You please, and confer honour and dignity on whomsoever You will and disgrace whomsoever You will. All good lies in Your hand. Verily, You are the Possessor of full power to do all You will, (3 : 26)


تُولِجُ اللَّيْلَ فِي الْنَّهَارِ وَتُولِجُ النَّهَارَ فِي اللَّيْلِ وَتُخْرِجُ الْحَيَّ مِنَ الْمَيِّتِ وَتُخْرِجُ الَمَيَّتَ مِنَ الْحَيِّ وَتَرْزُقُ مَن تَشَاء بِغَيْرِ حِسَابٍ ﴿٢٧

You cause the night to merge into the day and cause the day to merge into the night, and bring forth the living from the dead and bring forth the dead from the living, and provide (all sorts of provisions) to whomsoever You will without measure.' (3: 27 )
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