it's over...

cant believe the field trip is over...

huu..one d*mn hectic week.

but tot me a lot of self discipline.

sleep early, wake up early, nvr forget mathurat, jemaah prayer..study n discussion.dear lecturers were great..but sumtyms it's so confusing when they keep on arguing..huhh..

mm..thnx to my dear -one week- rumate: mirah, yana, jay, tc, and asha. unluckily..we hv no time to pillow talk. hehe.

came back yesterday..miss my bed so much.!huhu

reviewing the field trip..i gain lots of knowledge..at least, now m kind of good in measuring the strike n dip, a fundamental basic theory i just know after 1 n half year of learning.grrr.

the whole week was not really good..but not really bad. it's just..OK. the hecticness was worst than OBS, for me. i also learn to work in grup of people im not really close with..which is good..to get to know new frens.=]. n also..to cope with a kind of person which is too complicated, sometimes selfish n weird... which sometimes the annoyingness is unbearable..but for the sake of my study, i really hv to be patient n keep on muuuving.! a big thnx to shahul, he worked hard for this group,n sorry for not being really helpful at field..=[

the weather was so hotttt!walking thru the jungle with mud n taik kelawar was better than walking along the roadside..full of nice outcrops but dehydrate me like crazy.lucky me..i didnt get migrain..just hd minor headache due to too tired.mm..the longest walking distance is 10 km..2nd day..in niah cave.but it's even worst working in 5th day outcrop tepi kubur.Lambir-road even tho it's only few kms from the chalet...coz it's hot like he**.

after all...everything was just fine. thank u Allah..for giving such bless along the field trip period.!

btw..i tink m a bad fren.=[

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a little correction

hmmm. it's better not to read my blog if u dun understand me n wut ive gone thru all my life.

i dun write for readers. i write for me, my satisfaction, my understanding, and my hope.

i dun judge people, i noe the person i wrote about. i didnt even said the person is sinful, coz it's not my authority to judge whether the person is sinful or not. i just want others to tink. not to make assumptions. i want ppl to understand. not to misunderstand. but y shud i bother thinking about ppl's assumption? coz u dun even hv any right to judge my writing , my thinking, n myself as a sin coz u r not HIM. it was, n never will be between me n u, it's between me n Allah swt. so, syuh2.i dun need such reader. 

$empurna?

i was hormonal few days back..which is normal for every woman i guess.

mmm..so..i hope ppl won't assume anything bout something that made me sad. im ok. im over it.yes i loved him. but the hatred overweigh the love which equal to..no love at all. m just weird at that tym y ppl support such buaya like him. im not anyone to say this this, but i really tink that he doesnt deserve a good girl.not until..he realize what love is.he is so much like an immature litte boy.how cn ppl not see this? pls b more observant people!

errkk.umm.sorry if i over react or emotional.

what if..a person tinks he's enuff of what he is? looking for someone who can accept him as he is..? what a person wud say this..im good+bad=im equal(balance).oh please la sedar..m so risau bout the adeks.hope Allah swt will protect her.

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hmm..it's tuition free week..so..there's so many tym to tink bout the unimportant stuff.huhuh..things i write doesnt bother me as much as things i cant write...i cnt write y m so so happy!..tho i noe this won't last.but at least, i hv a reason to smile.=]

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y depend on people?

not everyone realize..yet understands the real meaning of being a muslim. To search for the truth is always my passion. seeking for the reason why..n why..people these days(including me)..become so cruel to themselves. (zalim = tidak meletakkan sesuatu pada tempatnya)

some people tink that happiness is the destiny of life? is it true?..hmm..different people hv different view of happiness...

-those who doesnt hv gf tink they'll be happy if they hv one.

-those who've done lots of sins tink they'll be happy if they havent did thos sins.

- those who dun hv much money tink they'll be happy if they r rich

n lots n lots more..we never feel enuff of having wut Allah swt had given us.people r always like that...why?

alone..lonely..n loneliness...why r we always need someone to fill in the emptiness...?we do we need someone to help us n solve our problems..why we never gv up on jumping from one to another..just to find the temporary happiness? why go far..if we cn just sit n pray for everything that we want..seek from Him the one who never betray u n loves u no matter what.

why keep on doing mistakes when u noe it's not right..why dun have a moment..flash back on wut uve done..regret.n improve.not easy tho..bt it cn be done.why stay on that track...u r the reason for any change in ur life. not other people. why depends on people to change ursev? one had told me that he needs someone better to change him..huu..i observed him..n always noe..he'll nvr change..never learn..if the will doesnt come from his deepest heart.

why?

lets tadabur these verse n tink. this verse is also good for rizk.

Al-Imran (26-27)

قُلِ اللَّهُمَّ مَالِكَ الْمُلْكِ تُؤْتِي الْمُلْكَ مَن تَشَاء وَتَنزِعُ الْمُلْكَ مِمَّن تَشَاء وَتُعِزُّ مَن تَشَاء وَتُذِلُّ مَن تَشَاء بِيَدِكَ الْخَيْرُ إِنَّكَ عَلَىَ كُلِّ شَيْءٍ قَدِيرٌ ﴿

Say, `O Allâh! the Lord of all power, You grant power to whomsoever You will and take away power from whomsoever You please, and confer honour and dignity on whomsoever You will and disgrace whomsoever You will. All good lies in Your hand. Verily, You are the Possessor of full power to do all You will, (3 : 26)


تُولِجُ اللَّيْلَ فِي الْنَّهَارِ وَتُولِجُ النَّهَارَ فِي اللَّيْلِ وَتُخْرِجُ الْحَيَّ مِنَ الْمَيِّتِ وَتُخْرِجُ الَمَيَّتَ مِنَ الْحَيِّ وَتَرْزُقُ مَن تَشَاء بِغَيْرِ حِسَابٍ ﴿٢٧

You cause the night to merge into the day and cause the day to merge into the night, and bring forth the living from the dead and bring forth the dead from the living, and provide (all sorts of provisions) to whomsoever You will without measure.' (3: 27 )

something to share:

With patience comes victory, with distress comes relief, with hardship comes ease.

the Birth daY.=]

I AM SELF OBSESS.=P

she was born on 25th March 1988 at 11.36 pm in University Hospital,KL.

the last child in the family.cute (mase baby la).=p

huhuhuhu.cant believe thats me! y am i so x comel skrg.down.=[

hmm...firstly thnx to everyone who wish me on 

my bday. tq so 

much. hee..feel so happy that day.

though there's no more suprise bday party or any prank for me. i still feel so hepy n appreciated.

special thanx to tc, asha, jay n mus, n dear peeya.hhuhu..these people gv me special wishes.

thanx to the parents as well...deliver me n t8 gud care of me until today.=]. n sisters who wish me after abah remind them.hehhe.=p

many people wish me ' hope jmpe jodoh yg baik n kawin cepat'.huhu.amINNN.

there's one wish from this one person..i was deeply touched. thnx dear fren, cant believe u wish me.=]

okey..thats all...im 21 now.getting older n wiser..perhaps.heeeeeee...but tc said im even more immature after my bday.sudahlaaa kau tc.wek.=p

the life

hope everyone enjoy the family day+welcoming gath+special general meeting held this morning.

as for me, i tink m very messy handling the registeration counter. sorry to everyone.=[

i'll improve mysev.=p

it was fun...huhuhuhu..the fear factor cuisine was crazy...haha.i dunno how can others swallow everything in. 

am i having fun? yes. looking fwd the next event! gala nyte~.

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rahsia hati. sofea dedicate me this song. i loike it.

mmm...the lyrics r meaningful kan.

...decide not to tink too much about the unimportant...gud luck syarifah.!

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the spirit is getting stronger...dear raudhatus sakinah's..gud luck.!

' cast away all discouraging thoughts that make u feel helpless, and focus on success, then u will never fail'

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clasmates....we r goin to be busy this week.get ready!!!!

hope that Allah swt will gv me the bless of time so that i can finish all the given task by the due date.insyaAllah.

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pray that everything goes right. but if it isn't, i always noe where to turn to.

hmm..futsal..

huuu...da abes assignment due for this week.lega nak mati..

mm..PDC lost all games. but 2 games was gud.only the first one i felt so stupid.

the position was wrong. sorry coach. but this is true. we've been playing for almost 2 years..only the 1st sem syah help us.huhu..the other sems..we r on our own kn..remember?

so..i tink it's better to decide oursev..who cn play which position. but...it's just ok..everyhting was ok..at least no injuries. n thanx to coach jgk..for supporting us. SITH was very good..like always..=]

oh..gud luck 4 tomorrow people!

hatiku tidak salamah..

aku punya cinta yg saaangat byk.

tapi hatiku tidak salamah?

aku saangat ingin menjadi seorg yg salim.

punya hati yg salamah. 

aku terlaaalu menyayangi sehingga membuatkan aku benci.

tp aku tidak begitu kejam utk berdendam.

aku ingin sekali difahami

tp..

aku da tade idea..nnti nk tnye sifu asha.

aku dah terinfluence dgn wordings aishahwho. aku x suke berbahasa sbnrnye.hakhakhak

nk wat tag yana...tp album aku full ngn gmbr2 buruk ku. tidak secomel gmbr liyana.=[

oh..hepy bday mau!..seronok tgk mau digari....n berbau busok..penangan telur basi..wekk.aku pn termuntah td.

aku tidak ke daurah.bkn kerana aku x mahu ke daurah. tp aku x mampu.this week aku sgt byk bermain juge byk ke aktiviti agama juge byk assignment. aku rs sgt penat tp aku xthn nk main futsal n 'rugbi sentuhan'.salah ke? mm..da byk ari aku x dpt nikmat mkn. tp aku mkn. tp..tapela..Allah syg org yg lapar kn..yg sedih..

oh..aku miss parents aku. aku mungkin anak plg sensitip.everytime kol mak musti berlinang air mata..walopon tgh gembire.haih.pelik jgk aku nih. 

mmm...nnti ade field trip..gune duit sniri?uni apekah ini..aku pn x phm asal uni x cover cost field trip. kenelaaaa mnx ngn abah lg..nnti akak2 ckp aku suke mengahbiskan duit mak abah..walopon betul..aku tadela teruk sgt sbnrnye..aku ni jimat jgk orgnye.=p

sebenarnye..aku blum siap sedi..hsemate aku pn pelik dgn keadaan aku yg ala2 rilex tp cuak sbb x siap kije lg..dorg da jauhhhhhh tinggal aku.tp tape..insyaAllah siap.

moge2 masatoshi x strict sgt bg mark...aminnn.

hoPes n dreaMs.

firstly, sorry if the title hv nothing to do wit the content.=p

last week was hectic.lucky me i didn't go to Bekenu. heard it was fun..but..i dun feel regret

 either.huhu.see la..if next tym ade lg..n im free..then..i'll go.=]

there r loads of assignmentss..n loads of study materials..which i dun hv enuff tym to go thru all of them. but i'll try.

yesterday was asha bday but she's not ere.m so lookin fwd to see her tomorrow.! today is islah's bday..but m not one of the prank-er.huu.

yesterday, i went to Peryatim..spent some times wit the orphans playing badminton n 'kaki tiga' n borak2.huhu..i met this one girl..form 1..she's so excited meeting kakak2. i borak2 wit her...she told me she loves reading..she finished reading 'limpahan darah di sungai semur'. literature novel, from 1. i still remember ive never read any of malay literature novel. i only read the

 summary during exam week. huu..m so shock that this girl finished reading the book in just a few days. i went home after maghrib, n she sempat ask me to come again n bring her books n teach her english. hmm..m so touch by her enthusiasticness...so, before went back, me, k.ada, k.jam, n mirah stop at the bookstore to buy sum stuff n did bought her two story books.murah but i hope she's hepy.!=p

im reading a very interesting book ryt now.

title: YOU CAN BE THE HAPPIEST WOMAN IN THE WORLD.a treasur chest of reminder.

auhtor: Dr 'A'id al -Qarni.

a motivational book..full of great quotation n a perfect company for a woman.=].it's from the surau..err..sorry circuit.

mm..m sorry for wutever i did that hurt anybody.we r still fren, we'll always be.

'Be content with that which Allah has decreed for you, and you will be the richest of people.'

syarifah is not yet ready

i accidentally miss the first class...mineralogy...m kind of sad coz nobody kejut me. not many people noe my other num so..those who noe also didnt kejut me. huhu.but nvr mind lor..me n my hsemate didnt even prepare for the class as we tot there's no lab for this week.

haih..luckily there r toooo many people in my class to fit in the lab..so..mr naga x perasan sgtla those who takde..kot.=p

btw, i dun noe when can i write new post..jadual klas x fix lg..n aplus pn da nk start meeting..n my usrah oso already got plan for the whole sem.

umm..i miss la..the few moments last week.hmm.

later k..tata

masihkah kau ingat..

2009!..

hmm..rasenye blom terlambat nk wish hepi new year..=p

my compaq laptop osak last year..so, i bought a new dell.

tp luckily aku smpt burn gmbr2 dlm cd. gmbr2 since mule2 dtg miri..2006-2007. sgt byk. masetu...byk aktiviti..gi men futsal pn amek gmbr.skng nie..cm jarang r..just bile ade ape2 event je amek gmbr..kn kwn2?..mm.skng neh..nk amek gmbr member pon pk dlu..'ape kes aku nk amek pic mamat/minah die..membazir space jekk..'=p

so..td aku pn tgkla gmbr2 lame..1st tym tgk after 1 year burn.huhu..mm..rs hepi sgt tgk gmbr tu..sbb sumenye hepi belaka..leh imagine situation at dat tym.never will i forget..fresh faces..happily smiling..rse riang gembire tibe2 hati yg lara neh..cewah.

tulah gunenye gmbr..flash back bittersweet memories. after all...for the bitter part,aku x regret..apepon yg pernah terjadi..dats wut made me a better person.for the sweeeet part..im so hepy to remember those moments..huhu...frankly..aku xpnh rase enjoy gile cm kt miri nih exspecially 1st year kt sane r..even zaman high skol aku pon x sebest cmni sbnrnye..bg org lain mybe zaman skolah best gile kn..tp bg aku r..life aku kt miri r yg plg best pon..kt skolah dulu best gkla..tp byk tension..sbb kwn2 la..sbb stdy yg turun naik..depressed gile bile pointer jatuh sume..hmm..tp kt miri aku rs best cm nk nangis.hahaha..over la plak kn..

maybe sbb tym foundation dulu rilex gile..study pon ala2 xnk stdy je..(aku jela kot)..hahaha..so..bwat aktiviti paper pon layan je..x pk sgt pon psl hw ke exam ke..janji pass sudah..lgpon sume subjek2 yg da blaja upper form dulu kn..cewah..tp result aku x gempak pon.=p..tp aku x pnh sedeyh pn result aku x gempak..nape eh..pelik ni..

hmm..tp skrg..bile da msk degree..msg2 da bwat hal msg2..sibuk ngn stdy n ect..bond between us..lately became weaker..tol ke tak assumption a.k.a ape yg aku rase r..mybe sbb byk konflik..?or..kite da semakin dewasa?

hmm..apepon..sebagai seorg yg penyayang..aku nk confess sket kt sini yg..aku mmg syg kwn2/klasmate aku...xtau r pesal..sebagaimana yg penah aku ckp kt STE dulu..aku syg sgt korg..=p.nape ye..adekah korg baik sgt?best sgt ke korg?korg comel?hmm..bukan bersebab....x kesahla korg cmne pon....

i'll upload sum of the pics nnti yeh..daa..

25 things about me!..=]

25  things about me!..=]

1. im a sensitive..soft-hearted person.i love my fren easily..but it's kind of hard for me to trust   someone.

2. i love babies..was planning to hv one by final year..huhu..tp mybe x dpt kot.=[

3. i enjoy outdoor activities

4. i listen to almost anything..but i prefer..jazz..n  country songs..

5. im single.=]

6. the next guy in my life is my hubby.

7. im the last child in the family....im not really manje..but im very close to the parents and siblings.

8. i found new hobby..sewing..(just like my mother). already made a baju kurung n a blouse.=]

9. i enjoy cooking n cleaning the house..especially when i got problems..

10. i wud like to befriend with my ex which i found hard n a bit weird.n sumtyms his eyes seems like juling when talking to me.=D

11. im suFFering frm migrain..i cnt bare too hot /too cold...stress..

12. i dun really like facebook.

13. my sister accidently broke my left leg when i was 3.no big deal..i cn still sprint 100m.=p

14. i miss my bebe( a bear given by sumone) damn much..im sorry..i hd to giv u away..=~[

15. mm..my happiest moment..had become my worst memories..i just wnt to erase them all if i cud..=[

16. im a pesimist sumtimes..but i always try to b an optimist.

17. i don't like staying at home..n sleeping all day.

18. im a very observant kind of person. 

19. i hv to attend usrah every week...or else..i'll mess up.

20. my dream is to hv a simple lyf..wit a great hubby and beautiful kids!

21. i love nescafe..but ive to cut it off..cause it will cause me migrain.

22. i eat a lot when there r sambals. but i cnt take much of it as i hv sinus.

23. i'll become crazy in 5720 wit housemate..nobody will ever imagine how crazy i cn be..huhu

24. i stay at home wit only mak n abah..oh..not to forget, ingrid..an old,alone,cnt stop meow-ing, manje     cat of my kazen which my family need to take care of.

25. when given any task,i dont talk much. i only speak out when i tink i really need to. i dun lyk to argue wit bossy people. so, better shut up n do things on my own.

wah..it was so seronok taking sumtyms thinking about myself.huhu.

mm..frens tag me on facebook.but i just dont feel like posting anything on facebook.sowi eh.

It was never between you and them!

i feel bad lately..=[.byk sgt lintasan hati yg x baik towards other ppl.huu..istighfar byk2 syarifah!=p

this wordings help me a bit.=]

IT WAS NEVER BETWEEN YOU AND THEM:

People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered.
Love them anyway.

If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.

If you are successful, you win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.

The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.

Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.

The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds.
Think big anyway.

People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.
Fight for a few underdogs anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.

People really need help but may attack you if you do help them.
Help people anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, there may be jealousy;
Be happy anyway.

Give the world the best you have and you’ll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you have anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway.

 

Allah did not promise that the way would be easy..But He did promise that..He would be with u in every single step of ur life..as long as u want Him to.=]

gosip dan dengki

Apabila ada berita tidak baik tersebar..semaklah terlebih dahulu.

Apabila tergerak di hati kita untuk berburuk sangka atau mencari dan menyebarkan gosip berkenaan org lain, letakkanlah diri kita di tempatnya. Nescaya kita benci tindakan sedemikian dilakukan ke atas diri kita tanpa mengira sama ada sangkaan atau gosip tersebut benar atau tidak. Maka dengan itu, tahanlah diri drpd berburuk sangka atau mencari dan menyebarkan gosip.

Apabila ada berita tidak baik yg tersebar, semaklah terlebih dahulu. Jika ia adalah dusta, maka wajib kita membela dan membersihkan nama saudara kita yg dianiaya oleh berita tersebut. Jika ia adalah benar, maka wajib kita menasihati saudara kita yg tersilap itu dengn cara yg tersembunyi, lemah-lembut, dan hikmah.

Ingin ditambah bahawa berburuk sangka dan mencari-cari gosip di kalangan sesama umat Islam adalah sesuatu yg dilarang. Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda: ‘berhati-hatilah kalian terhadap buruk sangka kerana sesungguhnya ia adalah perkataan yg paling dusta. Dan jgnlah saling mencari-cari khabar kesalahan, jgnlah saling memata-matai, jgnlah saling meninggikan harga utk menarik perhatian pembelu, jgnlah saling mendengki, jgnlah saling membelakangi. Wahai para hamba Allah! Jadilah kalian bersaudara!’ [Shahih al-Bukhari, no:6066]

Seterusnya, apabila saudara kita memiliki sesuatu kelebihan seperti  ilmu, kedudukan, kemasyhuran atau harta, maka letakkanlah diri kita di tempatnya. Nescaya kita bergembira dan bersyukur apabila di kalangan saudara kita ada yg diberi atau memiliki suatu kelebihan.

Lawan kepada sikap ini ialah DENGKI. Dengki ialah membenci apa2 kelebihan yg dimiliki saudara kita. Sikap dengki menyebabkan kita merasa hanya diri kita saja yg layak memiliki kelebihan tersebut dan bukannya saudara kita. Sikap dengki ialah dia membenci untuk saudaranya apa yg dia cintai utk dirinya. Sikap dengki juga ialah enggan memberi kpd manusia apa yg dia suka diberikan kepadanya. Oleh itu berhati-hatilah dgn kedengkian kerana ia adalah isyarat kecacatan iman dan factor penghalang drpd syurga Allah s.w.t.

Sikap dengki adalah suatu penyakit hati yg amat merbahaya sehingga Allah s.w.t. mengajar kita sebuah doa khas untuk menjauhinya: ‘ Wahai Tuhan Kami! Ampunkanlah dosa kami yg mendahului kami dlm iman, dan jgnlah Engkau jadikan dlm hati perasaan hasad dengki dan dendam terhadap org2 yg beriman. Wahai Tuhan Kami! Sesungguhnya Engkau Amat Melimpah Belas kasihan dan Rahmat-Mu.’ [Surah al- Hasyr, ayat 10]

Buat renungan dan peringatan buat diri sendiri..dan juga sahabat2.

Jgnlah kita cemari kasih-syg yg telah Allah beri sejak mula hingga kini dgn berburuk sangka dan berhasad dengki. Hendaknya kita saling memperingati dan saling mencintai saudara seislam. Hidup di dunia penuh dgn onak dn duri. Nmpknya cantik tetapi pastinya pedih di kemudian hari.Kegembiraan dunia tidak menjamin apa2 utk kehidupan abadi di akhirat kelak.

pasting asha's

having so much in mind....hormonal..disturbia..huhuhuhu..byk tol masalah pompuan neh.haih.

hmm..this one poem from asha really touch me inside..=p..so i decided to paste it here..plus i dunno wut to write..hehe

love at first sight, i believe no
lovers come, lovers go
if i leave, im not romeo
maybe just another gigolo

im not a man anymore
hopes i grow and then i throw
mankind couldn't be such low
she just couldn't take much more

curse on me to kill her feeling
happy with new one, but she's dying
great love's within me, her tears flowing
i care but i have a brand new darling

this poem reflects every brokenhearted women...isn't it.so was me.

miGraIn or geNius?

migrain.my biggest enemy.huhu.last exm week was hectic.ive tried my very best to manage time for stdy, rest, n fun tym.

afterall..i tink,i did it well.hehe..mom said..dun stdy too much..huhu..becoz she doesn't wnt me to suffer fr migrain-->take lots of painkiller-->make worst of mysev. hmm.i cannot stdy too much..how cn i score?

Allah s.w.t will help us as long as we hope n pray to Him..the only Him.my mom said. yeap...dats undeniable isnt it.

i always make sure i hd enuff sleep(8hours) per day.i stdy half day(make fully use of it) n the rest of the tym..i rest(poye2). it works. ive reduced the dose of painkillers@panadol.

i stop stdying at least an hour before exm..not even discussing..i hd some nap. ppl might see see me as a cool person..or lazy..or bajet bgs..heuheuehue..bt i dun care...as long as i cn avoid stress..which will later lead to Migrain.

during chem exm..i got migrain..bt luckily..i still cn answer most of the qs.thnk u Allah.even during geology 102(structural geology) i suffer frm flu.huu..it's damn adventurous..struggling with flu...essays..and drawings..during the most critical unit's exm. i answer very fast...n get out of the room very early. some pple may tink m too genius cn answer very fast..n some my tink m bajet like always..haha..n some may be pity of me..tgk me not feeling well lyk dat...but the truth is..alhamdulillah i cn do all..but maybe not as successful as others..n i need to go out early becoz i cannot stand the pain..plus m ashame of mysev making noises along the exam period..coughing n sneezing.huhu..gross.

i always wnt to be a smart student..very hardworking..the one who cn work best under pressure..n a person who is very determine in study..but i just can't.huhu.it's fated.isn't it?

i cn only try my best..i wnt to live longer..i herd stress will lead to cancer..i easily get stress out..so ive to manage my stress level very well. family's health history was scary.huhu.i dunt really burst out no matter how big my problem is..i usually keep problems inside..no wonder i got migrain...

i may not get the best of everything in my life.but all i noe is i'll make the best out of everything i hv in life..=)

test papers..mlsnyer nk stdy blk.urghhh

hoaa..full mark..mm..my retest paper neh.=p

ya Allah...m so tired to stdy chemistry..i envy asha coz she cn happily edit her blog while i suffer stdying chemistry bcoz geo 108's impact havn't leave me yet.

i envy my sister n cousins oso becoz they cn blogging always no matter how bz they r.hukhuk

y shud we take chem 144 final test????????x phm...supposed we dun hv to.haih..pelik tol curtin neh.hmm..can't wait to finish chemistry 144...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

life was so busy lately...nxt week is stdy week..but still need to submit field trip report n paleo lab on monday.

hh..

ive been thinking of writing this after got back from usrah last week..but im so tired to start typing..

it's about love.huhu..'marahiluttafa u'li bissyahadatain' (tahapan berinteraksi dengan syahadat)

the first level is 'love'.to grow the love for Allah s.w.t...'almahabbah'.or in hindustan we usually heard mohabbatein..it's the same meaning.=]

hmm..talking about true love. i read sumwhere..saying dat true love nie..we need to grow it..it will nvr come easily..n it's not like love yg suddenly dtg..like wut we always herd..tibe2 rase cinta?wek..so..not true.=p

cinta n kasih sayang tu sume dtg dr Allah s.w.t.we cannot stop it. but we hv to remind oursev dat we need to get control over that feeling..bukn that feeling yg control kite. this is when Allah s.w.t cn test us..how kite handle nikmat Allah s.w.t. kalo kita x misused nikmat Allah s.w.t ni insyaAllah berkekalan..

emm..rasenye cm dh slh topic..huhu.but it's related la gk kn.

how to grow the love? bwat sesuatu kerana-Nya..tinggalknlah ape2 yg bukan kerana Dia..it's not easy tho..but try.it cn be done.=]

there r few other levels..but m tired to write all about it..hehe.~

what im trying to say here is: mm..cintailah Allah s.w.t...nescaya kite akan redha dgn ketentuannya..smoge Dia juga redha akn kita..

hmm...smoge ape yg dikarutkn ini..ade pointnyer..=p

as a reminder, to myself...n to whoever that gonna read this post..;)

c.i.s raya celebration!

c.i.s stand for curtin islamic society.

last saturday we had this annual raya celebration but this is the best raya celebration ive ever seen since last 2 years.huhu..seronok sgt.=)lalalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaa.=D

kwn2 ku..hehe..

girls my tableangless...huhu..tc, me n asha

enjoy sungguh aku mlm tuh..haha..blk umah tros pengsann kepenatan..hehe

penatnyerr..hukhuk

huuu..so penat this week. last nite i finished 2 assgments..environmental geology n structural..it's fun but so tiring..wut to do..ive to pay for my lazyness..always do last minute..plus im not feeling well few days back..migrain..flu..cold..sorethroat..huu..pity me.=[

back in miri..this week onward will be the most busyest period of this sem..just imagine we hv to chase the tym to complete all topic..test..f.trip..final exam..haih..

i feel so empty inside..mybe because ive so many works..always daydreaming..enjoy life too much..jiwang aje..these all makes me spent too little tym to be close to HIM..plus..it's already syawal..that's what usually happen to muslims..after ramadhan past. life gets back to 'normal'.huuuu..

current condition: m hepyyy???huhuh.probably
status: single??probably

conclusion? no conclusion..im not ready for any transition state..hehe.but im hepy for wut i currently have..thank u Allah!

this is my boy!

picS raya.=]

sElamat ari raya to all. da lmbt ke? br raye-8 meh..huhu

these r few pics tym raya+blk kg aritu..huhu...this year's raya not bad loh..tho not all of the family members gather, this raya still got its own meaning for me.

yana n family still in london..miss u guys so much. other cousins pon raya overseas jgk. anak2 dara only me, dhani, k.yong, k.ijan, bibi n aji..but still..sonok je gosip2.huhuhuhu.

the most happiest people during raya was budak2..my nephews loh..haih. but being an adult also no bad la..got lots of duit raya..(thanx to my akak2 n auntie2 n uncle2.)=p

m sory to all my frens...coz i didn't wish any of u guys during raya..sowi sgt..pity izafi..she called me when i was waiting at lcct for my nxt flight to miri.huhu..sik smpt jmpa gik raya nie.

Selamat ari raye..a pose from me.=pfamily pics:
mak,tok,abah
k,ijan,me n k.teh's familycmnila baby raye..tdo sajekakakku..noty boythe only pic wit dhanie..x smpt nk bergmbrme, aji n bibi.hehe.comel kan kami.
aku di pagi raye..ptg raye..melarikan diri dari budak....x larat nk kepong dorg..

hepy yet sad?..n epy again.

hepy again hepy..dun noe y. but so hepy. yet sad? hmmm..sad for sumone..for a fren who's nvr want to change..who's not yet discover the truth of all the truth..who's nvr learnt from mistakes done before..but i'll always pray for this fren. may Allah s.w.t help him..finding the right path.=]

oh..back to my hepynesss. m goin back home this thursday. i'll be hving a week off 'study life'...but still not totally free coz we got assignmentss to do. but at least..i'll be very much hepy to be with my baby nephew..harraz..hayyan..n akil..m not sure akmal goin back or not.ohh..sorry to my nieces..miss them oso..fina, rosa n nisa.=p..

cant wait to mee my parents..miss them so much..yet worried bout my dad's condition..herd him gettin better but still..x caye coz he always lie bout his condition.huu...n.hmm...lookin fwd meeting my k.ijan..my crazy-unstable sister..oh..new hot storiess...urgghh..gilak la kakakku.

haih..okla..i need sum sleep..esk nk sahur pulak..

oh..hepy day?

today...

• chem test was fine. =]
• mm..i miss somebody
• sumbody hurts me b4 class just now..bt it's ok..hormonal act jer neh.
• geo lab was...ok..not bad.today im good.
• iftar @ hikmah..n then usrah.
• so...hepy @ usrah..got my new tafsir quran.hehehehhe..n then..i found this one book title: ' how to get angry without feeling guilty' m n asha borrow from there..very interesting i tink..i'll try to finish it by this week..then bg asha plak..
• after all...today m very hepy to hv this kind of feeling...dun noe how to describe the feeling..it's just too beautifull..peaceful! ah ha..!

wahai hawa..

Wahai Hawa, Kenapa..
engkau tak menghargai nikmat Iman dan Islam itu? Kenapa.. mesti engkau kaku dalam mentaati ajaran-Nya? kenapa.. masih segan mengamalkan isi kandungan-nya ? dan kenapa.. masih was-was dalam mematuhi perintah-Nya?

Wahai Hawa, Sedarlah..
Tangan yang mengoncang buaian.. boleh mengoncang dunia, Sedarlah hawa.. kau boleh mengoncang dunia dengan melahirkan manusia yang hebat!! yakni yang Soleh dan Solehah, kau boleh menggegar dunia dengan menjadi isteri yang taat serta memberi dorongan dan sokongan pada suami yang sejati dalam menegakkan Islam di mata dunia.

Tapi hawa..
jangan sesekali kau cuba menggoncang keimanan lelaki dengan lembut tuturmu, dengan ayu wajahmu, dengan lengguk tubuhmu. Jangan kau menghentak-hentak kakimu untuk menyatakan kehadiranmu. Jangan Hawa, jangan sesekali cuba menarik perhatian kaum Adam yang bukan suamimu.. kerana aku khuatir ia mengundang kemurkaan dan kebencian ALLAH. BAHANA!

Ia bisa memberi kegembiraan pada syaitan.. kerana wanita ialah jala syaitan, alat yang di eksploitasikan oleh syaitan dalam menyesatkan kaum Adam. Hawa, Andai engkau masih remaja.. jadilah anak yang Solehah buat kedua ibu bapamu, andai engkau sudah bersuami.. jadilah isteri yang meringankan beban suamimu, andai engkau seorang ibu.. didiklah anakmu sehingga ia tak gentar memperjuangkan Ad-din ALLAH.

Hawa,
Andai engkau belum berkahwin, jangan kau risau akan jodohmu, ingatlah hawa janji TUHAN kita, wanita yang baik adalah untuk lelaki yang baik. Jangan menggadaikan maruahmu.. hanya semata-mata kerana seorang lelaki, jangan memakai pakaian yang menampakkan susuk tubuhmu hanya untuk menarik perhatian dan memikat kaum lelaki, kerana kau bukan memancing hatinya.. tapi merangsang nafsunya.

Wahai Hawa,
Jangan sesekali dikau mulakan pertemuan dengan lelaki yang bukan muhrim kerana aku khuatir dari mata turun ke hati, dari senyuman membawa ke salam, dari salam cenderung kepada pertemuan dan dari pertemuaan... takut lahirnya nafsu kejahatan yang menguasai diri.

Hawa,
Lelaki yang Baik tidak melihat paras rupa, Lelaki yang Soleh tidak memilih wanita melalui keseksiannya, Lelaki yang Warak tidak menilai wanita melalui keayuaannya, kemanjaannya serta kemampuannya menggoncang iman mereka.

Tetapi hawa,
Lelaki yang Baik akan menilai wanita melalui akhlaknya, peribadinya dan ad-dinnya... Lelaki yang Soleh tidak menginginkan sebuah pertemuan dengan wanita yang bukan muhrimnya kerana dia takut menberi kesempatan pada syaitan untuk mengodanya. Lelaki yang Warak juga tak mahu bermain cinta sebabnya dia tahu apa matlamat dalam sebuah hubungan antara lelaki dan wanita yakni perkahwinan. Oleh itu Hawa, Jagalah pandanganmu, jagalah pakaianmu, jagalah akhlakmu, kuatkan pendirianmu...

Andai kata ditakdirkan tiada cinta dari Adam untukmu, cukuplah hanya cinta ALLAH menyinari dan memenuhi jiwamu, biarlah hanya cinta kedua ibu bapamu yang memberi hangatan kebahagiaan buat dirimu, cukuplah sekadar cinta adik beradik serta keluarga yang akan membahagiakan dirimu. Hawa, Cintailah ALLAH.. dikala susah dan senang kerana kau akan memperolehi cinta dari insan yang juga menyintai ALLAH. Cintailah kedua ibu bapamu.. kerana kau akan perolehi keredhaan ALLAH. Cintailah keluargamu.. kerana tiada cinta selain cinta keluarga.

Hawa ,
Ingatanku yang terakhir, biarlah tangan yang menggoncang buaian ini dapat menggoncang dunia dalam mencapai keredhaan ILAHI. Jangan sesekali.. tangan ini juga yang menggoncang keimanan kaum Adam, kerana aku sukar menerimanya dan aku benci mendengarnya.

....i found this article in iluvislam.com...isn't it interesting? it's not easy to apply tho..but at least we cn remind oursev n boost us to be a better n better muslimah. hope that i'll be like one oneday...

life is gud n dandy now....but there are few things which r quite disturbing..i ask few people..every each of them gve me different opinions..im much more confused...i don't know whether what m doin now is the right thing to do..may Allah swt bless me in whatever im doing.

i love the way i am right now. im an independent single women. with few new principles. knowledge. focus. n not to b left.. hopes n dreams..

when it comes to hopes n dreams..again..m confused..hhuhu..i admit dat m still not mentally stable. m very much hepy to b with frens..full of laughter n love...but yet m afraid of things dat will happen next.

i hate to talk about guys. im just so tired and enough having 1 failure. m not looking for next. i believe there is no real love. there is no love at first sight. there is no first love. or whatsoever annoying thoughts of love. huhuhu..m not paranoid..m looking fwd meeting sumone new. m just being very careful right now. dats y m full of doubts n that sumtimes not necessary.

hmm...life is so complicated..but i learnt a lot.